Well... because of my journey op find a new dream job is kind a mess, a couple weeks ago I decided to give up. Remember about the test for dream job that I failed before, After that I cry so much that makes my parents worried about me. and I ask them to let me go home and stop looking for job.
That day I was crying and crying over and over again until my eyes is so big like a frog. I give up. I though that I don't get the other interview because this job is for me, this one. Just like before, when I first time looking for job after I finish my college.
At that time I was looking for job desperately until I was lower my standard for the job, and its been happen for about three month and I was applying for so many jobs that I cant even remember what are the companies I was applied to. But one day I got called to attend several test to get into a very good company, I was pass all of my test until the last interview, and I pray to Allah that please don't let me choose by my self because i would get very confuse, I don't know which one to choose. and then the result came out, I past the interview from the Bank and I didn't pass the interview for cosmetics company.
So, anyway I was give up couple weeks ago. I feel a bit worn out looking for job, I lost my confidence. I though that it would be so much easier because I already have an experience working as an Assistant Manager in a very good and big company, but it doesn't. of course there are a lot of reason for that. maybe because I'm not trying hard enough, maybe I'm still lacking in my skills, maybe I set up my standard to high, maybe because I'm a too picky choosing the jobs, or I don't know.. maybe It just not the time yet for me.
Well, I am picky now because I don't want to get the job that I don't like just like before, because it to tiring and wasteful i think. It was made me became a very ungrateful person, and I don't want to repeat the same thing again.
But to ninght I was meeting my father, he has some business in town. He make me realise that it not the time to give up yet, there will be no time for give up now and later. All the time I have is to keep trying hard for what best for myself. and I actually the biggest reason why I want to give up and just go home because the truth is I can afford to live by myself again without having a job. its been 5 month i spend my money just the same amount like when i was working and also I've been going o holiday, and shopping and all enjoying my free time.. ( yeaaaah... I wasteful like that sometimes.. you know, when I was still working, sometimes I would just stay in the hotel room for couple night because I was bored with my job and I choose a quite expensive room... hhhhhhuuuufff..... my bad)
Well..... NOW I decided to try again.. try harder and work harder to achieve what I need. after all, All I want is being a independent and proud daughter for my parents. I want to them to see success again. I want them not to worry about me and I want to be more happy with myself, with my own life more than before.
I hope these dream will soon come true... Mamaa.... Ayaaah... I love you both so much and forgive for making you worry about me again, Please wait and see me success once again.
Love...
your Big "little" girl
That day I was crying and crying over and over again until my eyes is so big like a frog. I give up. I though that I don't get the other interview because this job is for me, this one. Just like before, when I first time looking for job after I finish my college.
At that time I was looking for job desperately until I was lower my standard for the job, and its been happen for about three month and I was applying for so many jobs that I cant even remember what are the companies I was applied to. But one day I got called to attend several test to get into a very good company, I was pass all of my test until the last interview, and I pray to Allah that please don't let me choose by my self because i would get very confuse, I don't know which one to choose. and then the result came out, I past the interview from the Bank and I didn't pass the interview for cosmetics company.
So, anyway I was give up couple weeks ago. I feel a bit worn out looking for job, I lost my confidence. I though that it would be so much easier because I already have an experience working as an Assistant Manager in a very good and big company, but it doesn't. of course there are a lot of reason for that. maybe because I'm not trying hard enough, maybe I'm still lacking in my skills, maybe I set up my standard to high, maybe because I'm a too picky choosing the jobs, or I don't know.. maybe It just not the time yet for me.
Well, I am picky now because I don't want to get the job that I don't like just like before, because it to tiring and wasteful i think. It was made me became a very ungrateful person, and I don't want to repeat the same thing again.
But to ninght I was meeting my father, he has some business in town. He make me realise that it not the time to give up yet, there will be no time for give up now and later. All the time I have is to keep trying hard for what best for myself. and I actually the biggest reason why I want to give up and just go home because the truth is I can afford to live by myself again without having a job. its been 5 month i spend my money just the same amount like when i was working and also I've been going o holiday, and shopping and all enjoying my free time.. ( yeaaaah... I wasteful like that sometimes.. you know, when I was still working, sometimes I would just stay in the hotel room for couple night because I was bored with my job and I choose a quite expensive room... hhhhhhuuuufff..... my bad)
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Well..... NOW I decided to try again.. try harder and work harder to achieve what I need. after all, All I want is being a independent and proud daughter for my parents. I want to them to see success again. I want them not to worry about me and I want to be more happy with myself, with my own life more than before.
I hope these dream will soon come true... Mamaa.... Ayaaah... I love you both so much and forgive for making you worry about me again, Please wait and see me success once again.
Love...
your Big "little" girl
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